Living By Faith

Living by faith and not by sight is not a dispensation of risk-taking and adventuring.  It is the clear ground upon which every Christian is to operate his or her life.  When we let Christ become our salvation, we received the Holy Spirit as a part of our personality.  This means that He interacts with us at every level of our thinking, whether conscious or unconscious.  The warping caused by sin makes us incorrigible at points; pouty children who demand our way at the expense of living in the Spirit.  This creates a conflict in our soul and the effect upon our soul is that we develop outbreaks of anger, depression, fear, discontentment, jealousy, frustration, impatience and a loss of gratitude.   When we frustrate the Holy Spirit by our rebellion against Scripture or disregard for how He is leading us, we start to lose contact with Him.  Some Christians are just fine with that.  They are in fact pleased to not have to put up with His pestering but after a while, it becomes clear that we are miserable people when we are not walking in step with the Holy Spirit.   At that point, when we like the prodigal son realize just how badly we have chosen, we in our misery cry out to God for help.  Through our desolation we repent of our sin and the Holy Spirit presents Himself to us once more and our heart becomes soft enough to live in Him, or to put it another way, live by faith.  Faith is not an ephemeral feeling of "everything will somehow come together."  Faith is the practical doing as the Holy Spirit gives direction.   The Holy Spirit might point out a Scripture that tells you how to respond to an argument you are having with your spouse or tell you to stop working for a certain company but always, if you are to remain "Spirit filled", you must not trust your Sin marred "sight" judgment, but rather by faith let the Spirit lead your next step.  The Holy Spirit is not going to fight with you to gain your allegiance.  But if you want the fruit of the Spirit operating within your personality, you must fight with your flesh to make Him your commander and chief!

We live by faith, not by sight.   2 Corinthians 5: 7 NIV

Obedience—The Great Uncovering Step 2

Genesis 28:16 NIV

When Jacob awoke from his sleep, he thought, "Surely the Lord is in this place, and I was not aware of it."

Are You Aware Of God’s Work In You?

Perhaps the most odd of all my actions in college was when I got involved in a “love triangle”.  Now I am sure that the girl in the triangle did not think of herself as being in a love triangle.  She was just having a good time going out with different guys.  My two friends though who liked her and who wanted her to choose between them felt very much like they were in a love triangle; or at least in a very attracted to this girl triangle.  For several weeks each of these two guys pined to me about his affections for her and how he could not tell if she liked him or  was just pulling him along to feed her ego.  I liked these friends and didn’t want either one hurt and so finally when I heard the girl was going out with a third guy at our school, I decided we should do something about this.  A group of us guys snatched her one day, brought her to the school fountain at the front of the campus and tossed her in it.  Now some would say this was a very mean thing to do and although the girl was laughing and mad all at the same time when she got out of the fountain and perhaps in some strange way liked all the male attention she received that day, I was doing something that had to break some rule.  Even though I never read a single regulation in the school handbook prohibiting guys from throwing girls in the fountain, I cannot say that what we did was “right”…funny perhaps but not right.  What struck me in this was that it probably revealed more about me in organizing this prank than it did about Ella who we all thought deserved to be “baptized” in the fountain.  The question is, what did this rebellious and somewhat mean spirited act reveal about me?

We are unconscious beings who carry below the surface a vast assortment of memories, ideas, convictions and desires.  Who we think we are and what we decide about ourselves isn’t necessarily the complete picture and perhaps not even a true picture of us!  There is much to us that we don’t grasp…some we recognize but try to keep from others and a lot that is hidden from us of which a little, unbeknownst to us, has trickled out where it is observed by friends family members and even strangers.  The question is not whether or not we have a significant unconscious world within; it is what shall we do about that unconscious world and will we let it determine key aspects of our lives.

The Bible provides us with rich insight into our inner world and it is of great value to study the people who are described in it.  One of the most important players in the Old Testament is David, the eventual king of Israel whom some would call the greatest of all the Hebrew kings.  David was courageous, intelligent, creative, godly and passionate.  But he also was lusty, narcissistic, bull-headed and ambitious.  He was a wild tangle of conflicted personality traits that God worked through to establish a culture of faith among the Hebrew people and make into a “man after his own heart”. (See 1 Samuel 13: 14)  David knew there was much below the surface of his personality that he didn’t understand and he invited the Lord to probe it.  Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts.  See if there is any offensive way in me, and lead me in the way everlasting. (Psalm 139:23-24 NIV)

There is a powerful and critical way the Lord reveals our hearts to us and it is astounding how effective it is.  The law of God not only defines holy behavior but it also uncovers layers of buried material that unconsciously drive many of our actions.  The Sermon on the Mount is a surprisingly effective way God reveals to us our hearts and the hidden wounded parts of our soul.  Consider just the directive to forgive.  For if you forgive men when they sin against you, your heavenly Father will also forgive you.  But if you do not forgive men their sins, your Father will not forgive your sins. (Matthew 6:14-15 NIV)  It is amazing how difficult it is for us to do this.  In fact, it could be argued that it is nearly impossible for many.

The painful description of David’s relationship with his first wife Michal illustrates just how illuminating the law of forgiveness can be.  David was the golden boy of his time, the conquering war hero who could do no wrong.  Yet it is likely that deep resentments that were developed in childhood haunted him.  His father saw so little in David that when the great prophet Samuel came to their town and called for everyone there to meet him for a sacrificial feast, the boy’s dad never bothered to call his youngest son back to the house.  He left David out in the fields tending sheep while every other child of Jesse was at the party.   To get a perspective on this, suppose Michael Jordan or Bill Gates were to come to your neighborhood and everyone on your block was invited to meet him at one of the homes down the street from you.  You had eight sons but brought only seven of them to the meet and greet.  How would it have felt to have been the only child not asked to come?  Later, we see what this mindset of the father did to David’s siblings.  When the older brothers went off to war to fight the Philistines and David’s father sent David to the front lines to bring food to his brothers, the oldest brother had a bitter reaction to David’s natural curiosity about the taunts of the giant Goliath and the way the soldiers planned on responding to Goliath’s challenge to fight him.  When Eliab, David's oldest brother, heard him speaking with the men, he burned with anger at him and asked, "Why have you come down here? And with whom did you leave those few sheep in the desert? I know how conceited you are and how wicked your heart is; you came down only to watch the battle." (1 Samuel 17:28 NIV)

Of course, we know that David not only ended up watching the battle but played the most important part in the Israelites winning the fight.  As a result of this bravery and other successful accomplishments in war, David was made a high ranking general in Saul’s army.  His popularity exploded and he was revered by the Israelites.  In fact he was more beloved than the king himself.  This infuriated King Saul and his jealousy inflamed his hatred of David.  The king concocted a plan to have David killed.  He told the boy that if he could somehow kill one hundred Philistines, he would give his daughter Michal in marriage.  Michal was in love with David and it would seem the feelings were mutual for David agreed to the bridal price.  David successfully killed one hundred Philistines and won Michal as his bride but their marital bliss did not last long.  Saul’s hatred of David grew so bitter that it became clear soon Saul would kill him if he did not immediately go into hiding. His wife Michal helped in his escape despite the risk she took enraging her father.  She knew it was possible that he would kill her for the part she played in David’s getaway.  But her love for David was too great for her to worry about her own life.  She had to help David save his.

What followed is tragic. The timeline isn’t clear but this marriage of infatuation and sacrificial love fell apart.  Abigail quickly got on a donkey and, attended by her five maids, went with David's messengers and became his wife.  David had also married Ahinoam of Jezreel, and they both were his wives.  But Saul had given his daughter Michal, David's wife, to Paltiel son of Laish, who was from Gallim. (1 Samuel 25:42-44 NIV)  Did first Saul force Michal to abandon her husband and marry someone he handpicked to replace him or did David first marry Ahinoam and Abigail and as a consequence Michal abandon her marriage to David and marry Paltiel upon her father’s direction?  We don’t know.  Probably Michal was the first one to remarry based upon Saul’s fury with David and Michal’s fear of her father.  David now had been rejected by the two most important men in his life, his father and the king who had taken him under his wing.  Michal may have been a mere pawn in her father’s hand but her rejection of David clearly stung David and his bitterness over her betrayal worked like dry rot in his soul.  He never forgave her.  One might argue that he couldn’t.   He was still the little boy whose father did not think he was good enough to warrant attendance at the party.

Ten years passed.  David had now added at least five more wives and perhaps more, fought a bitter war with Saul’s son and Michal’s brother Ish-Bosheth to gain control of all of Israel and no longer had King Saul to fear due to his death six years before.  Ish-Bosheth’s general Abner had become incensed with Ish-Bosheth and so decided to form an alliance with David and pave the way for David to be king over all Israel.  David was more than happy to make this agreement but first he had a requirement if he was to make peace with Abner and his army.  The general had to bring Michal back to David so that he could force her to be his wife again.  For perhaps ten years Michal had been with her new husband and he loved her deeply.  She was his only wife…he was her only husband.  David on the other hand had at least seven wives and many more he would take later.  What sort of bitterness of soul could lead to such a cold hearted, spiteful demand?  It was an ugly scene.  David told Abner and King Ish-Bosheth, "I will make an agreement with you. But I demand one thing of you: Do not come into my presence unless you bring Michal daughter of Saul when you come to see me." Then David sent messengers to Ish-Bosheth son of Saul, demanding, "Give me my wife Michal, whom I betrothed to myself for the price of a hundred Philistine foreskins."   So Ish-Bosheth gave orders and had her taken away from her husband Paltiel son of Laish.  Her husband, however, went with her, weeping behind her all the way to Bahurim. Then Abner said to him, "Go back home!" So he went back.  (2 Samuel 3:13-16 NIV)

Consider an imaginary conversation taking place between David and Jesus, one much like what happened between Christ and the rich young ruler.  David asks Jesus what he must do to inherit eternal life and Jesus tells him as he tells us all in the Sermon on the Mount to forgive, “Forgive Michal for marrying Paltiel and come follow me.”  David replies, “I can’t; it’s too much to ask, to demand I forgive her!”  Now, why couldn’t he forgive Michal for remarrying?  Why did he make her return to him?  He no longer loved her.  She didn’t love him anymore it seems.  Why couldn’t David just forgive Michal and move on in his life and let her move on too?  What drove his determination to ruin Michal’s life and Michal’s husband’s life even though it is a fundamental principle of God’s Kingdom to forgive those who hurt us?  Perhaps, it was because David always had to prove he was the biggest man in the room, always had to be the conqueror, always needed to have the prize in his hand, always needed to be respected and appreciated.  He could never let anyone get the best of him, never be disrespected. He had a deep seated need to prove his worth, to be someone!  Why might that be?  Perhaps, his bitter disdain for Michal and her needs and his unwillingness to forgive her was rooted in something deep and ugly…perhaps it had to do with his battle to prove his worth to his dad.  Maybe, there was a wound in David’s soul that had never healed and when someone he cared about deeply reminded him of the rejection he experienced when he was a child, he could not let go of the hurt it uncovered.

What if though, everything went in a different direction and the rich young ruler did give up his wealth and follow Jesus and David did forgive Michal for marrying someone else?  Is it possible that in doing the command of God, by forgiving Michal, David might have been freed by God of his need to prove himself, freed of his neurotic need to live up to the expectations of his father?  We cannot say what might have been but we do know this.  The commands of God are not intended to take apart the joy we have in being independent and free.  God’s demands are based in love and if we obey Him, there is power in God to make us more free than we ever thought possible.  Consider the promise found in Malachi made to those who take God seriously enough to do as He commands; who believe that in all His ways He is good, even when He tells us to do something that we feel is too hard to do.  But for you who revere my name, the sun of righteousness will rise with healing in its wings. And you will go out and leap like calves released from the stall. (Malachi 4:2 NIV)

Obedience—The Great Uncovering

Luke 1: 18 NIV

 Zechariah asked the angel, “How can I be sure of this?  I am an old man and my wife is well along in years.”

Have You Considered What Is Below Your Surface?

When I was in high school I made a decision that was not completely conscious but had long lasting ramifications for me.  Somewhere around my sophomore year I started playing basketball at gradually increasing degrees of priority.  It reached a point where I was playing basketball every evening after school for three to four hours and on weekends ten hours a day.  I wanted to increase my jumping ability and so I began wearing five pound ankle weights around and using them to jump rope.  I lifted weights to increase my upper body strength and ran to improve my endurance.  It became obsessive for me, this drive to become a great basketball player.  I did not have confidence in my ability though to make the high school team until my senior year when I finally tried out for the varsity.  What I did not realize though as I chased “my dream” was how little concern I had for what my parents wanted for me.  I did not care that by playing basketball all the time I wasn’t doing any schoolwork and I was rebelling against them and their wishes.  I was going against the direction of my school counselor who tried to get me to work harder at school and at a certain level, which I did not yet understand, I was rejecting the plan God had for me.  I was not made by Him to be a world class athlete.  He had shaped me for academia and I didn’t want what He wanted for me.  There was something deeply buried in me that drove my need to prove my worth on a basketball court day after day rather than fit in with what my parents as well as my God wanted for me.

We rarely think of “doing what we are told” as uncovering hidden secrets about ourselves.  We usually don’t like being bossed around by our parents, by our teachers, by police officers, by our supervisors at work or by the IRS.  And whether we are “good Christians” or not, we certainly aren’t usually happy to have even God tell us what to do.  But there is a fascinating side to our reactions to being bossed around that might be of great value to consider and that is the depths of insight we gain about ourselves when someone…even God, tells us what to do.  Today we will begin to explore this consideration and see if there might be much we can learn about ourselves when it comes to obedience.

There is within the birth narrative of Christ a most interesting study in human personality.  We find in it the strange and wonderful account of Zechariah, a Jewish priest who was old and had a wife named Elizabeth who was barren.  He was in the Temple of Jerusalem, having been chosen by lot to light the incense there.  It was a great honor for him to do this and so it was a big day for Zechariah to be alone at the altar doing this highly esteemed priestly duty.  But there was something not quite right with Zechariah; as his encounter with the angel Gabriel uncovered.

Without warning, the angel Gabriel suddenly appeared at the right side of the incense altar.  Zechariah’s visceral reaction to the angel standing before him tells us much of the supernatural quality of this visit.  When Zechariah saw him, he was startled and was gripped with fear. (Luke 1:12 NIV) Zechariah might have been startled by a fellow priest showing up out of nowhere in the eerie splendor of the Temple but his reaction was much more like that of one who had seen a ghost. Whatever followed from this encounter would certainly be significant perhaps even life-changing.  In a split second of awareness Zechariah must have come to this conclusion that he was “in for it”.  The angel though was not there to wreck Zechariah.  Quite the opposite!  His declaration though was one Zechariah, clearly was not prepared to hear.  "Do not be afraid, Zechariah; your prayer has been heard. Your wife Elizabeth will bear you a son, and you are to give him the name John.” (Luke 1:13 NIV) 

The immensity of the angel’s proclamation cannot be overstated.  It was after all an angel who said it and his presence alone terrified the old priest.  Perhaps more importantly, at least for our discussion here, Zechariah and his wife were old, childless and as far as the couple knew, Elizabeth was barren and for her it was disgraceful to not be able to have children.  Later, when she found out she was indeed pregnant, her reaction makes it clear how devastated she had been by her inability to have children.  “The Lord has done this for me," she said. "In these days he has shown his favor and taken away my disgrace among the people." (Luke 1:25 NIV)  After announcing the shocking news of a coming son, Gabriel, the scary angel then gave Zechariah a clear command about raising the child.  He is never to take wine or other fermented drink, and he will be filled with the Holy Spirit even from birth. (Luke 1:15 NIV)

But before all the angel promised Zechariah came to pass, Zechariah had no experience with God giving him such monumental gifts.  We know he had been praying for a child…most likely for decades.  The angel even said the coming child was an answer to his praying so most likely he had been praying faithfully for a long time.  He was a priest and he knew all the mechanics of praying for what he wanted…he had to have understood the scriptures promoting prayer and asking for what you want and need.  Perhaps he even did quite a bit of teaching on prayer but at some point it seems, Zechariah quit believing God would answer his most important prayer of all.  How do we know this?  Consider Zechariah’s reaction to the declaration that he would have a son!  Zechariah asked the angel, "How can I be sure of this? I am an old man and my wife is well along in years." (Luke 1:18 NIV)  The angel Gabriel was not at all pleased with Zechariah’s response.  The angel answered, "I am Gabriel. I stand in the presence of God, and I have been sent to speak to you and to tell you this good news.  And now you will be silent and not able to speak until the day this happens, because you did not believe my words, which will come true at their proper time." (Luke 1:19-20 NIV) 

Clearly the angel knew, and was not guessing, that what may have seemed a quite natural reaction to being told that as an old man with a wife who was an old woman who never before had been able to have children that they as a couple would have a child was not a good reaction at all…it in fact revealed something very wrong with Zechariah.

At first it seems a bit harsh of the angel to take away like this Zechariah’s ability to speak.  Of course he did regain his speech after the baby was born so it wasn’t permanent, the Lord’s disabling of Zechariah but it certainly was a strong message sent by God.  There was something very wrong about Zechariah and the command of God to raise the child he was about to receive in a certain way helped uncover what was perhaps hidden to everyone but God Himself.  Remember that the angel Gabriel did not need to come to Zechariah to tell him he was going to father a child; that would become all too obvious in a few months.  What he did need to know in advance was how this child would fit into God’s overall plan and how he was to raise the child.  The mother, if the baby was to be alcohol free, would need to be alcohol free herself even while she carried the baby.  That command required immediate attention.  So when the command of how to raise the coming child within God’s plan for him came, it was uncovered that Zechariah had lost his faith in God to answer his prayer.  “How could this be” he asked.  Indeed, how could it be if God does not answer our big prayers?  Zechariah was deeply wounded by what he had faced for so many years and he had buried that hurt for so long that it was not easy to be done with it. 

Consider just how far Zechariah had fallen from being a praying man.  Despite the fact that Gabriel clearly was supernatural and Zechariah knew Gabriel was an angel sent by God, he still could not accept the possibility that God suddenly would do for him what he had for so long been asking God to do.  Not even an angel, who brought him great fear by simply being before him, could shake the deeply rooted unbelief in God to be able to answer his prayer.  Many of us would say that if an angel spoke to us in person, we would believe everything there is to believe in God.  But maybe we wouldn’t.  Maybe we have such buried brokenness that we have for years hidden from view that not even an angel could shake us of it.  But, maybe, God with a simple command can uncover what is broken inside of us and through our obedience heal that place of brokenness.

Zechariah was bound up in doubt and disappointment that maybe no one but his wife guessed existed.  Perhaps this is reading too much into the matter but maybe it isn’t. As we will see, it seems to be a spiritual principle.  Elizabeth had to follow a command and she did it.  She had to raise her child free of alcohol.  This would have meant her abstaining from it too.  There is a slight detail in the account of the son’s birth that is subtle but of great value to us.  Pay careful attention to what is said.  When it was time for Elizabeth to have her baby, she gave birth to a son.  Her neighbors and relatives heard that the Lord had shown her great mercy, and they shared her joy. (Luke 1:57-58 NIV)  Notice that the neighbors and relatives shared in the joy Elizabeth had.  No mention is made of Zechariah’s joy.  Is it possible that Elizabeth was the only one of the two who was happy to finally be a parent?  Was not Zechariah also happy to be a father?  Of course he was.  But the expression of that joy needed a simple act of obedience to completely heal the pain of his buried loss of faith in God.  There was controversy among family and friends of the elderly couple.  Elizabeth and Zechariah knew that God wanted the child to be named John but that seemed preposterous to everyone else.  But then Zechariah asked for a writing tablet, and to everyone's astonishment he wrote, "His name is John."  Immediately his mouth was opened and his tongue was loosed, and he began to speak, praising God. (Luke 1:63-64 NIV)  It was only after Zechariah obeyed God in what many of us would say was a small matter but for Zechariah it was a tremendous moment of victory because in the act of declaring the name of the child to be the name the angel told him to give the son, he revealed his complete belief in God’s work of giving the child to them.  It was in that one bit of obedience that Zechariah’s joy was unlocked and his unbelief and broken feelings about God healed.

Could it be that like Zechariah, there is a command of God that is revealing buried brokenness of soul?  Is it possible that if you in faith did what God says to do in the matter you might be healed of that brokenness and it would be replaced by joy?  We will give this fuller attention later but for now, consider the possibility that there is something God has told you to do and you have been stopped dead in your tracks by some past hurt or wound that you have buried and by rejecting out of hand God’s command to you, the wound is just festering within you and keeping you from bubbling joy.  What great joy might we all have if we did what God tells us to do?  May it be that in our disobedience to some simple matter, we have been our own worst enemy?  Could it be so?

Fear of God

Proverbs 9:10 NIV

The fear of the Lord is the beginning of wisdom, and knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.

Do You Know Someone Afraid of God?

Before I knew anything about the “fear of the Lord” I found out about the fear of my dad.  When he spanked me, I knew I had been spanked.  I have a friend who had a fear of his mom.  When he disobeyed her, his mom had him stretch out his arms and hold them there until they began to burn like fire.  Several years ago I was passing out invitations to our church in the neighborhood and as I was walking away from one house, a man in his twenties stepped out, looked at my flyer and told me that if he ever found me stepping up on his porch again, he would kill me.  There are plenty of reasons why we become afraid.  Some of us are afraid we won’t be able to pay our bills.  Others are afraid of getting sick.  Many are afraid of getting fired or going into certain neighborhoods.  I am afraid of skiing.  Perhaps you are afraid of going to the dentist.  Certainly all of us have been afraid and sometimes for good reason, other times without cause.

Many are afraid of God.  They are afraid of making Him mad because they have done something wrong or they might have done something wrong.  There are world religions built around the concern that God is angry about something and needs to be appeased.  For those like the Hindus, this is even worse because there are so many gods to worry about.  The Bible talks several times about the “fear of the Lord” or the “fear of God” and it is important that we understand what it means by that.  Is it good for people to be afraid of God?  Should we be fearful of Him?  How do we act toward God if we are afraid of Him?  Aren’t we to have God as our friend?  How can we be friends if we are afraid of Him?  What is the psychological effect of the fear of the Lord upon us and how does it look behaviorally?

The Apostle Paul in his masterpiece letter to the Christians in Rome quoted from Psalm 36, contending that regardless of background universally among all people, "There is no fear of God before their eyes." (Romans 3:18 NIV)  Before that, he states, "There is no one righteous, not even one; there is no one who understands, no one who seeks God. (Romans 3:10-11 NIV)  These two verses appear to be in parallel, describing the same character trait.  Fear of God seems to be equivalent to being righteous, possessing “understanding” and seeking God.  The Psalm that the Apostle Paul quotes, which was written about eight hundred years before by David, the second king of Israel, gives this description of what it looks like if you don’t fear God.  There is no fear of God before his eyes.  For in his own eyes he flatters himself too much to detect or hate his sin.  The words of his mouth are wicked and deceitful; he has ceased to be wise and to do good.  Even on his bed he plots evil; he commits himself to a sinful course and does not reject what is wrong. (Psalm 36:1b-4 NIV)

There are four clear characteristics here of the one who does not fear God.   This person is too proud to realize that there is real sin in him and even if he knew he was sinful, he wouldn’t care or give it much thought.  The things this person says are half-truths and intentionally or unintentionally deceitful.  He no longer grasps what is wise and intelligent because he doesn’t avail himself to true wisdom that comes from God; consequently his thinking is too shallow to grasp what is good and right and so he lives in rebellion against God.  This rebellion is planned and thought through by him so that he does what he does knowing full well it is wrong.  There is in the one without fear of God a casual approach to evil deeds, his moral compass is broken and he does what he decides is right for him without regard for what is actually “right”.  This passage has a clear summary of how the one who does not fear God lives but it is not so easy to see from David’s Psalm what it looks like when you do fear God.

Surprisingly, rather than listing all the characteristics of the one who fears God, David creates a picture of what God is like.  Your love, O Lord, reaches to the heavens, your faithfulness to the skies.  Your righteousness is like the mighty mountains, your justice like the great deep.  O Lord, you preserve both man and beast.  How priceless is your unfailing love!  (Psalm 36:5-6 NIV)  Now this is interesting because you would expect that if someone was interested in finding out how it looks to fear God and not just what characterizes the one not fearing God, you would think this passage would tell you.  It certainly provides a clear examination of the personal qualities of non-God fearing people.  Yet rather that stating the opposite side of the coin, what a God-fearing person looks like, it talks about God Himself.  However, when you think about it, this description of God does say something quite clearly about fearing God even if it is a bit unexpected and unusual in its presentation.  The one who fears God has a very decided view of Him.  He sees God as loving, faithful, righteous and just.  This is not a dry theological comment.  It drips with affection and happiness.  No one could have this sort of feeling toward another and be called non-committal about the relationship.  A person who fears the Lord is in awe of the goodness and rightness and love of God and does not cower in dread of God but is excited about being with Him.  Verse 7 of Psalm 36 provides a clear sense of what someone who fears God thinks of Him.  How priceless is your unfailing love!  Both high and low among men find refuge in the shadow of your wings.  (Psalm 36:7 NIV)

This is of course a far cry from what we normally think of what fearing God entails.  Most studies on the fear of God focus on the Hebrew definition of fear…that it speaks either of cowering, abject quivering in ones boots over the might and power and sternness of God or that it is watered down a bit from that…describing respect.  So either our relationship with the Lord is to be like one we would have with an absolute despot who can on a whim have us struck dead or give us great honor and power or it is like that of a student with a law professor who is really smart and cool but kind of like us…just better and more successful.  However, that is not how fear of God seems when we read Psalm 36.  The person who fears God does not pay attention to His power or to His competency but rather to His love and goodness, His rightness and fairness. We must remember that fear means one thing when we are talking about sinful beings who are self-centered and egotistical and full of sin but something all-together different when talking about God.

An example from the Old Testament might help us see this more clearly.  In Genesis, our earliest documented history of the world there is in chapter 22 a most intriguing perspective on the fear of God.  It is the famous account of Abraham hearing God tell him to bring his son Isaac up on a mountain to offer him as a sacrifice there.  Some time later God tested Abraham. He said to him, "Abraham!"  "Here I am," he replied.  Then God said, "Take your son, your only son, Isaac, whom you love, and go to the region of Moriah. Sacrifice him there as a burnt offering on one of the mountains I will tell you about." (Genesis 22:1-2 NIV)  Immediately Abraham made preparations and the very next morning he brought his son along with the wood and fire up Mount Moriah where he then at the top lashed his son to an altar and prepared to strike his son dead with a dagger.  Then he reached out his hand and took the knife to slay his son.  But the angel of the Lord called out to him from heaven, "Abraham! Abraham!"  "Here I am," he replied.  "Do not lay a hand on the boy," he said. "Do not do anything to him. Now I know that you fear God, because you have not withheld from me your son, your only son." (Genesis 22:10-12 NIV)

Let us consider this carefully.  God said that Abraham feared God and how He proved this was by Abraham’s behavior, he did not withhold his son.  By “withhold”, The Bible meant that Abraham was about to kill Isaac out of loyalty to God.  When we say “fear”, we generally mean that we are afraid of some outcome…there is something we don’t want to happen because if it did, it would be terrible.  The thought of it is dreadful to us.  Now what was it that was dreadful to Abraham?  Could there have been anything more horrid that having his son dead…or perhaps being the one who killed that son?  At one hundred-ten years of age or so, Abraham knew he would die eventually.  He could not have been afraid of his own dying.  Would he have been afraid of becoming poor?  Probably not at one-hundred ten years of age…not anymore anyway…Was he afraid of his wife leaving him for another man or of her dying of old age?  What would have made Abraham afraid of God?  Most likely, and it cannot be much of a stretch to say this, his greatest fear when it came to God was that the Lord might take his son from him!  If he had a fear of God, that would have topped his list and yet by his own volition, he was about to kill his son because he had fear of God.  That sounds crazy but of course it wasn’t.  Fear of God had nothing to do with being afraid of the worst thing that He could do to him because the worst thing that God could have done to Abraham was take his son and Abraham was doing that himself.  Fear of God was just what Abraham revealed; it was following God regardless of the cost.  More than that, it was absolute trust that God would do what was right and good no matter how things appeared.

Hebrews 11: 9 tells us that Abraham believed God could and would raise Isaac from the dead even if he did kill his son on the mountain.  Abraham reasoned that God could raise the dead, and figuratively speaking, he did receive Isaac back from death. (NIV)  Of course God did not raise Isaac from the dead because He told Abraham to not kill his son.  But before that Abraham confidently raised his knife to kill Isaac because he had faith God would not let Isaac stay dead.  And here we see what it means to “fear God’ because this is what it was for Abraham.  To “fear God” means to trust Him explicitly with your life and with the lives of all those you love and to trust God so much that you will do whatever He tells you to do.  “Fear God” is unbending belief that God is good and can be trusted with everything and everyone you hold dear.  The test for you is when He tells you to hand to Him what matters most to you and let the Lord do with it as He pleases.  So few Christians ever get to this place of absolute trust in God and because they don’t, their lives are shallow and fearful and demanding and short-tempered and even greedy.  They may have their salvation but no real relationship with God that changes the quality of their lives.  You cannot and will not move forward with Christ unless all you treasure is His and you can walk away from any of it if He tells you to do so and still be devoted to God.  Your test will come, perhaps today, maybe tomorrow and you will have to decide if you really do love and trust God.  If you do and you show you do, nothing will be more certain to you in the crisis or the painful time than God’s love and care for you and you will be peacefully calm and secure in it.

Unperturbed

What seems to frustrate us most, at least for those who live actually, acknowledging  tragedy and wreckage are  the normal parts of life, is that we can't ever swing free of our troubles.  We may hide from them for a while or even make light of them as if we are indifferent to their bite but in the end troubles square us up and make full contact.  The soldier on the battlefield as well as the mother nursing her sickly child is matched up with troubles and they make a mockery of the misty dream-state concocted by teachers of Biblical positivism.  You would think, if you believed some, that the disciples never died, Mary Magdalene never got sick and John found Patmos a paradise.  It is there before us though.  We do get tired of our husband's mood swings, limp with arthritis and wake up to unemployment.  The bank does foreclose on our house and our daughter slams the door on us.  This stuff of life is here and we must recognize the root of it as it is.  We are a fool if we think Jesus never stubbed His toe, woke up with a migraine or failed to sway the crowd.  He, whose own brothers and sisters thought Him a fool and whose mother convinced herself He had lost His mind, lived out fully the farthest reach of sin and taking it within Himself buried that sin in the Cross.  Our sin has been crucified with Christ but its stench remains at every crack and mound.  Its damage remains like scars that seem to get worse with age.  What Jesus Christ has done for us though in taking our sin from us is make it possible for His life to live within ours, for Him to actually transform us that He and us become one new being.  This means that the same strength Christ had as He worked His way to Jerusalem is ours and the faith He had that made Him fearless as the storm threatened to swamp the boat where He slept is the faith we hold too.  We have no monstrosity to fear, no rejection to dread.  With Christ working His way through each part of us, we can be happy as sorrow strikes but not with the happiness of a lunatic but with the joy of the redeemed,  the joy flowing out of the One who has been baptized by death and come up again alive to the brim.  You can, in Christ, face your day not in some drunken stupor brought on by the old wine  you drank before but in the life you have now with the Lord Himself welling up as a fountain of Living water within you.  Drink deeply from that spring and face what comes to you with the strength God provides.  Nothing is too terrible to bear if Christ's very own blood flows through your veins.  It is not God who incites you to worry, not Christ who pushes dread upon you.  The word of God is always "fear not" just as surely as you breathe.  Don't dread the coming storm...be glad God has given you the opportunity to find out just how strong you now are and how unperturbed you can be.

"Whoever believes in me, as the Scripture has said, streams of living water will flow from within him."   John 7:38 NIV

Timed Responses

No part of any day is as big as the present moment.  Unlike the Lord who can live within each moment equally, we can only live perfectly within the present time, the past is a shadow, the future a misty guess.  Faith is never worked out of either the past or the future but just now.  How do fear and bitterness and discouragement and consternations arise...they filter out of the mind going back or moving ahead.  It is within this time only that you can see clearly the loving care of Christ poured out  upon all you hold dear because it is now that you assess through the eyes of faith and see the hand of God working here and there.  Both the past and the future are easily smeared by the wasting of Satan; God will keep your present pristine as you look to Him  and work through Him. You have the thousand regrets of the past and the ten thousand dreams and nightmares of the future but the present is the one spot where you can see everything as it is and give up everything haunting and grasping and hold only to the love of Christ working through you.  Ask, seek and knock are of neither the past nor the future but contained just within the present and it is in the present that you will have joy and peace.  Look to the Lord with the gaze of a sailor scanning the horizon for any sign of land.  You have waited a long time for some things, dread the coming of others.  Dreary memories dismay you, past achievements bind you.  It is in this place and time that the Lord will make you totally free to have joy and contentment.  Go hopefully and serenely to the Lord now and give this and that to Him as it comes before you.  Ask.  Seek. Knock.  That is the stuff you are to be about now.  Ask.  Seek.   Knock.  The Christian is perfectly within Gods will the moment He knocks for God to open,  seeks the Lord to be there,  asks His Savior to save him.   Give way to fear, despair, anger or frustration and you have left the moment and hidden yourself in either the past or the future.    When you realize you are stuck in that closet, get out as soon as you can and in a flash, the Lord will make your day clear and light.

Everyone was amazed and gave praise to God. They were filled with awe and said, "We have seen remarkable things today."   Luke 5:26 NIV

Normal Christianity

Is it not the easiest and most natural thing for a Christian walking in the freedom of the Holy Spirit to do what God says?  There is no real hindrance in this for the believer who trusts God.  He is absolutely without barriers for he can rise above every disappointment and difficulty, unencumbered by worry or fear.  The love of Christ is empowered by the conquering work of the Cross and it will not let the disciple be wrecked.  Too often we mistake a trial or a temptation or even a bruising wound of Satan for a death blow to our peace and joy.  The life we have in Christ is too big and too vibrant to be held back for long.  We are genetically enabled by the work of Christ when we are born again to rise above each Satanic attack.  Follow Jesus at any moment and trust Him then and you will find a heavenly flow coming upon you, an outpour of living water reviving you.  You have God in you and you are free to be happy and content.

The Crisis Point

The crisis point is not at the moment you find some part of your life out of control; it is when you must accept that every part of your life is actually beyond your control.  We try desperately to calibrate this and modulate that but it is in the end not ours to fix or determine.  The Lord does not intend to make you more differentiated from your environment...He is using it (that wild and unpredictable world where you have been placed) to add to the supernatural work of being born again.  The more we try to squirm out of our predicaments and fix our dilemmas, the more sustained the rough edges of our personality.  You cannot love unless God surgically removes the bumps of hate and jealousy, you cannot trust unless he sculpts away the scared ridges of doubt and self-confidence and you cannot hope unless he rubs off the fear and bitterness caked on your too fragile psyche.  You have been placed at your spot so that the Lord can perfect His work in you.  Rest your soul in God who loves you enough to keep you where you are.