Solitude

Exodus 33:8-9 NIV

And whenever Moses went out to the tent, all the people rose and stood at the entrances to their tents, watching Moses until he entered the tent.  As Moses went into the tent, the pillar of cloud would come down and stay at the entrance, while the Lord spoke with Moses.

What Do You Think God Wants To Do With You?

A few weeks ago, it didn’t go well for me substitute teaching.  The class had acted pretty badly and I struggled to maintain control over the group.  They kept speaking when I told them to be quiet, I had trouble explaining the material I was assigned to cover and several of the kids were disrespectful.  I felt overmatched and inadequate.  Limping to my car, I asked God what was wrong with me.  Everything about my life felt out of sorts and in disarray.  I opened the door and plopped down in my seat, glad to have a few minutes of solitude.  I sat before God in the sanctuary of my little Honda and silently gave Him time to work in me.

Probably you too have needed time alone and it was a welcome relief to find a spot where you could regroup.  Perhaps you have felt psychologically drained and wanted to get away where no one could interrupt your thoughts or agitate you.  Sometimes you have to retreat to the bathroom to find solitude.  Maybe it is your car or your office or a park bench where you gather yourself. Many retreat to their bedrooms.  You might sit in front of your computer without noticing anything that’s there, lost in your thoughts.  Do you need time alone on a regular basis?  What does solitude do for you?  Have you found it helpful?

The Bible makes it clear that we are never alone, even when we are in the loneliest of places.  The book of Hebrews even insists that we are surrounded “by a great cloud of witnesses.”  Yet, due to our lack of awareness of everything supernatural happening all around us, we ignore both angels and demons.  When we are by ourselves with no physical beings nearby, we feel alone and quite honestly are often quite grateful for those moments.  However, our difficulty perceiving the presence of God does not mean He is absent.  The Lord promises He is with you at every moment and solitude is not what is commonly thought.  If you realize that solitude is always you with God and never you just by yourself, a great benefit to your life is possible.

The Gospel of Luke begins with an interesting story that is only told by Luke.  There was a couple that was old and childless and the husband was one of many Jewish priests.  Zechariah was chosen by lot to go into the temple and burn the incense in the sanctuary.  Once when Zechariah's division was on duty and he was serving as priest before God, he was chosen by lot, according to the custom of the priesthood, to go into the temple of the Lord and burn incense.  And when the time for the burning of incense came, all the assembled worshipers were praying outside. (Luke 1: 8-10 NIV)  Zechariah found himself alone in the inner sanctum of the Temple but what he soon discovered was that his solitude was not what it seemed.  An angel suddenly appeared in the room.  When Zechariah saw him, he was startled and was gripped with fear. (Luke 1:12 NIV)  After the angel reassured him that he was not in danger, the messenger from God gave him the joyous news that Zechariah and his wife were going to conceive and have a baby.  The angel made it clear that this was an answer to their prayers.  But this declaration was too stupendous for Zechariah to believe, even if it did come directly from an angel!  Zechariah asked the angel, "How can I be sure of this? I am an old man and my wife is well along in years." (Luke 1:18 NIV)

After all these years of praying, Zechariah had become hopeless.  He no longer believed it was possible that he and his wife could have a child. Yet here was the revelation, coming to him in the solitary place where Zechariah thought he was all alone.  We see this same formula again and again in Scripture.  God lets someone become alone and then He shifts that person’s life.  When the Lord wanted to adjust the prophet Ezekiel’s thinking, He pulled him aside.  Ezekiel describes this in the book he wrote.  The hand of the Lord was upon me there, and he said to me, "Get up and go out to the plain, and there I will speak to you." (Ezekiel 3:22 NIV)  How did God say this to Ezekiel?  Was it in an audible voice that anyone could have heard or did God speak directly into the prophet’s head?  We don’t know but what is clear is that the Lord sent Ezekiel off by himself to receive the revelation.  This is the normal process.  God waits until someone is alone…or thinks he or she is alone…and then He does something new with that person.

Consider the example of Isaiah.  The Lord got him alone in the Temple and there revealed Himself to the prophet.  In the year that King Uzziah died, I saw the Lord seated on a throne, high and exalted, and the train of his robe filled the temple. (Isaiah 6:1 NIV)  If God’s presence was not enough, there were flying seraphs and shaking door posts and thresholds and the whole building filled with smoke.  Clearly Isaiah was not alone and the Lord made that clear in a magnificent way.  Immediately, with all the pageantry, what struck Isaiah most was his sinfulness.  He let out a wail!  "Woe to me!" I cried. "I am ruined! For I am a man of unclean lips, and I live among a people of unclean lips, and my eyes have seen the King, the Lord Almighty." (Isaiah 6:5 NIV)  When God meets you in the solitude, you must first face your Sin.  It becomes clear as day when you are alone with the Lord that you sin and sin badly.  You cannot go any further with the Lord unless you grasp the awful nature of your sin and solitude magnifies it so that you see your sin clearly when you become alone.  If you have not seen your sin and grown to hate it, you most likely have never been alone with God.  The Lord forces you to face your sin.  His very presence does that to you.

If you are alone with God, there are two revelations that will come to you and they will carry the force of a great hurricane.  You are sinful and only God can take away your sin.  Whatever was wrong with Isaiah, whatever evil he saw in himself, it had to do with his mouth!  Jesus said that it is not what goes into you that is bad, it is what comes out of you that matters and clearly something was coming out of Isaiah that was ugly and it had to do with his mouth.  Immediately when Isaiah realized just how wicked he was the Lord provided him with a live coal that took away the guilt of his sin.  Then one of the seraphs flew to me with a live coal in his hand, which he had taken with tongs from the altar.  With it he touched my mouth and said, "See, this has touched your lips; your guilt is taken away and your sin atoned for."  (Isaiah 6:6-7 NIV)

If there is a single lesson to learn from this passage, perhaps what rises above all is that only God can take away our guilt.  God does the work.  Here He touches the lips with the purifying live coal.  This was just a temporary solution for only in the Cross is the guilt of our Sin removed altogether.  When Christ came and became a part of us, He did so to deal once and for all time with our Sin.  You cannot be alone with God and fail to realize your complete dependence upon Him.  In a crowd you can feel secure and confident that you make it on your own.  Alone with God though you know that is a fairy tale, it is like thinking your heart is unnecessary or your brain does not matter.  Dependence upon God and reliance upon Him to save you is the clearest sign you have been alone with Him.  What is so striking about the Psalms is that this is what you see in them at every turn.  You are dependent upon God to save you and there is no greater determination you can make than to rely upon Him in everything you do.

Nearly always when there is a break in your relationship with God, it is because there is a moral barrier that stands in your way.  God would not let Isaiah go any further with Him until his mouth issues were addressed.  Sometimes it is sexual immorality, other times a bad temper or the unwillingness to forgive.  It might be cruelty that you possess or selfishness and greed or the hard headed unwillingness to do what God has said to do.  This barrier, whatever it might be must be taken apart if you are to ever go any further with God.  It is when you are alone with Him that this is done.  God penetrates your heart and works out of you what sin has worked into you.  As you stay with Christ, alone just the two of you, a miracle occurs.  The love of God starts to become your love, the peace of God becomes your peace and the joy that God has becomes your joy.  You cannot generate this within yourself.  Only Christ can do it.  Alone with God, no conversation, no distracting phones or computers, just your mind and the Lord’s mind coming together and in the miracle of Christ, you become transformed.  God will want to make you alone with Him to cleanse your actions and He will want to work out of you your sinful habits. In solitude you will be made good, and clean and like God.  In God’s grip, alone with Him in a quiet place where He can get through to you, nothing will matter that mattered so much to you before; not your accomplishments, not your gifts, not what you want to make of your life.   What will rise above everything else as you stay with Him will be His love becoming yours as you remain alone with Him wherever and whenever the Lord calls you to come to Him.  Why not take a solitude break this week?  Be alone with God for whatever time you can give Him.

Heart in Action

1 Chronicles 29:18 NIV

O Lord, God of our fathers Abraham, Isaac and Israel, keep this desire in the hearts of your people forever, and keep their hearts loyal to you.

How Important Is Loyalty?

I realize that I am now kind of an old-timer and loyalty means a lot to me.  I am loyal to vanilla ice cream.  I am loyal to McDoubles.  I am loyal to Northern California beaches despite how cold they are and loyal to our local jazz station. I am loyal to khaki pants and button down collars and hair gel. I am loyal to my friends and loyal to the denomination I joined years ago.  I am even loyal to our cat even though she wants nothing to do with me except when she is hungry.  I saw this recently in the news and perhaps you also noticed it.  The dictator of North Korea, Kim Jong-un ordered the execution of one of the country’s vice premiers for slouching during Jong-un’s speech because it was to the North Korean ruler a sign that the vice premier was not thoroughly loyal to him.  If it were asked what single human quality is most valued in North Korea probably “loyalty” would be at the top of the list above creativity, ingenuity, compassion or integrity.  How important is loyalty to you?  How important is loyalty to God?

What if God demanded of you the same sort of loyalty Kim Jong-un demands of the people in North Korea?  If you were to quantify your loyalty to God on a scale of 1-10, what value would you give it in terms of your interest in the Bible, your keeping of the ten commandments, church service attendance, your financial support of God’s Kingdom, the value you place on your moral purity or how often you bring up God and the Gospel in your normal conversations?  Loyalty is of course practical and not some abstract idea and if we have read much in the Bible, we would see that God cares very much about loyalty but rather than using the term “loyalty” He speaks more precisely of “love”.  Jesus said that the most important of all the commandments of God is, “Love the Lord your God with all your heart and with all your soul and with all your mind.” (Matthew 22:37 NIV)

How do you do that?  If you were honest, if that was the test of your loyalty, would you have to be blown up if you lived in North Korea because you would fail?  The problem you face when it comes to loving God is your heart!  You can’t count on it.  Jeremiah the prophet, speaking for God spells out your dilemma.  The heart is deceitful above all things and beyond cure.  Who can understand it? (Jeremiah 17:9 NIV)  How can you love anyone with all your heart if you can’t trust your heart to love and you have no idea what all is in it?  Because you have so little insight into your own heart, you can be fooled into thinking you are better than you are.  All a man's ways seem right to him, but the Lord weighs the heart. (Proverbs 21:2 NIV)  Because you don’t know what is in your heart, you cannot be certain of what you will do or how you’ll react to situations you face.  You can convince yourself that you are good but only God knows all that is in your heart.  Search me, O God, and know my heart; test me and know my anxious thoughts. (Psalm 139:23 NIV)

Two examples illustrate this.  Genesis 4 in the beginning of the Bible provides us a fascinating case study that reveals how complicated the human heart is.  When Cain killed his brother Abel there was no clear explanation for his action.  All we know is that when God approved of the offering Abel brought but was not complimentary of Cain’s, Cain became angry and it showed on his face.  Cain invited his brother to meet him out in the field and there Cain killed Abel.  Could jealousy alone have provoked such anger?  Was there something else that pushed Cain over the edge?  What was stirring in Cain’s heart that drove him to murder?  Who can explain this senseless rage?  All Cain had to do if he really wanted to please God was straighten out whatever was wrong with the sacrifice he offered.  Something else within his heart inflamed him with anger so intense he killed Abel.

Another example that is difficult to explain is Solomon’s transition into paganism.  He was the son of the one God called “a man after my own heart”. (Acts 13: 22 NIV)  Solomon orchestrated the building of the great Temple of the Lord and famously met with Solomon by way of a dream and promised the young king wisdom beyond anyone’s on earth as well as riches and honor which is exactly what he had.  When Solomon dedicated the Temple to God, a great cloud filled it and the priests could not do their work because “the glory of the Lord filled his temple.” (1 Kings 8:11 NIV)  Fire even came down and consumed the sacrifice Solomon offered on the altar.  God a second time appeared to Solomon at night and warned the king in gave terms not to turn away from worshiping Him and going after the false gods of the pagans but that is precisely what he did.  As Solomon grew old, his wives turned his heart after other gods, and his heart was not fully devoted to the Lord his God, as the heart of David his father had been. (1 Kings 11:4 NIV)  What could lead to such a dramatic shift in loyalties?  How could Solomon walk away from such dramatic appointments with God and become a spiritual traitor?  It was Solomon’s heart that was the problem.

James the brother of Jesus asked an important question but also gives the answer.  What causes fights and quarrels among you? Don't they come from your desires that battle within you? (James 4: 1 NIV)  The Apostle Paul in Romans 8 provides a dynamic explanation of what is really going on within.  Those who live according to the sinful nature have their minds set on what that nature desires; but those who live in accordance with the Spirit have their minds set on what the Spirit desires.  The mind of sinful man is death, but the mind controlled by the Spirit is life and peace; the sinful mind is hostile to God. It does not submit to God's law, nor can it do so. Those controlled by the sinful nature cannot please God. (Romans 8:5-8 NIV)

There are three terms in this passage that must be explained.  The first is “mind”.  This is essentially what other parts of the Bible call “heart”.  It is who we are for eternity whether we have the body or don’t.  The second term is “sinful nature”.  This is the operating system of our lives outside of Christ.  The sinful nature is the controlling force of our life if God is not in charge.  The third term is more a phrase—“the mind controlled by the Spirit”.  This is the condition of our heart when God is working actively within it.  Our heart, filled with the clutter of a billion memories, the damage caused by countless sins, the good and bad of all our relationships and everything we think and decide about God and the world about us, is operating either without God or with Him and we decide what it will be at any given moment.  What the King James Bible calls the “carnal man” is life under the operation of a heart in chaos.  There is no order to the heart without God; it is a baffling and convoluted wreck that can be kind one moment and cruel the next, corrupt and selfish and generous and moralistic all at the same time.  Anything can spring out of the heart controlled by the sinful nature because it is wild and corrupt.

However when the Spirit of God begins to take charge of the heart, order is established.  The Bible calls this “life and peace”.  It is the condition of the heart when from the heart comes honesty and you can count on it, kindness and it is consistent, generosity and purity and goodness become normal and expected.  The memories that once caused so much pain and bitterness lose their power to wreck the heart when Christ is at work in it.  Life and peace is not a goal we set for ourselves but it is the end game when the Spirit of Christ is given full sway over the heart.

An account from the Bible that often goes unnoticed will illustrate the difference between the two operating systems of the heart.  In Acts 11 is the recounting of the Apostle Peter’s defense of his strange decision to go into the house of a Gentile family and share the Gospel with them.  From the time he came out of his mother’s womb Peter had been taught to avoid at all costs non-Jewish people.  Do not eat with them, do not marry them, do not touch them and do not enter their homes ever.  In fact, Peter’s conscience was organized around the complete disdain of non-Jews.  Then one day while napping, Peter had essentially the same vision three times.  In his own words Peter describes them.   I saw something like a large sheet being let down from heaven by its four corners, and it came down to where I was. I looked into it and saw four-footed animals of the earth, wild beasts, reptiles, and birds of the air.  Then I heard a voice telling me, 'Get up, Peter. Kill and eat.'   "I replied, 'Surely not, Lord! Nothing impure or unclean has ever entered my mouth.'  "The voice spoke from heaven a second time, 'Do not call anything impure that God has made clean.' (Acts 11:5-9 NIV)

Almost immediately after these visions three messengers arrived inviting Peter to come and explain Christianity to a Roman centurion and his family.  Everything in Peter’s heart went against this.  He had been taught to despise non-Jews and certainly had from experience plenty of reasons for staying away from Roman soldiers.  His heart certainly would have been against going with the men to the centurion’s home but his heart had within it more than the sinful nature operating.  The Spirit told me to have no hesitation about going with them. (Acts 11:12 NIV)  So Peter went.  Can we see a clearer example than this of how the presence of God in the human heart can completely alter the way a person operates?  Memories, bad experiences, poor teaching and sinful habits do not control us when we have the Spirit of God putting our hearts into order.  Yet like Peter, you must never argue with or ignore the Spirit of God within you when He directs you.  We will be amazed by what God does within our hearts when we let the Spirit make decisions for us.  Every time we give the Spirit control in a matter, when we are loyal to Him in us, we become more like God and less like what we would be if our hearts remained broken by sin and all the evil found in this world.